I have no doubt in my mind that this year will go down in my history as a key year in my success stories. I have experienced elements of growth by leaps and bounds, much more than I imagined or envisaged at the turn of the year.
I delved into software development in an official capacity this year, and I have to say I was not prepared for the significantly eurekaic moments I have had along the way.
I have had lows, some of which resulted in me shedding real tears, some others resulting in me ponderously considering if I could ever meet up to the lofty heights and skill level required of top developers. I cannot say I am there yet, but I am well on the way, and most importantly, there has been an injection of self-belief and doggedness in me than I have ever managed to have before, and this belief has permeated all areas of my life. I can do anything I desire, and I truly believe that.
“Old habits die hard” goes the saying, and that has been the case for me.
I have had to deliberately be proactive about nipping harmful habits in the bud. You see, down the years, the need to appear to be without blame/blemish has driven me to coyly cover my sins/inadequacies. Chief among them was a need to follow through, spending quality time on any thread of sensual content.
Lest I mince words, sometimes, said threads could outrightly be said to be porn. Twitter has been the supplier of such content, as sometimes, you see a random tweet/retweet and then downhill it goes from there. I had to learn to cut such persons (creators and distributors of said content) off my timeline; blocking and unfollowing as many as possible, and to willfully avoid a “second glance” or a deep perusive endeavour in investigating what those threads are/were about.
I cannot claim to have arrived at a position that the appeal of immorality, its sisters, and other harmful habits are fully behind me, yet, I am fully armed with God’s spirit. His spirit has been of unquantifiable help in helping me deal with my demons, and elements of hypocrisy and eye-service that lodged in my heart. Looking forward to more definitive victories in the years ahead.
I think it could be said that a couple of my relationships took a hit this year, but I see it all as learning points. Instead of elaborating on my alliances that did not progress meaningfully, I’d say it is more useful to be thankful for the new friendships cultivated and the existing ones groomed that led to me being an improved person in more ways than I could have imagined
I am in love with Folabomi. She drapes me in the wealth of valuable emotional, spiritual, and mental resources. She has been in my life all the while, but I had to be ready for her before I made a move on her, and I have to say that the timing couldn’t be better. She has been an immense addition to my life; a friend, a lover, a teacher, a partner.
RARING TO GO
I have to admit that I did not read nor write as much as I know I am capable of this year, and this was mainly because I thought I had to sacrifice those parts of me for a bump in proficiency in my programming ability and capability. I soon found that idea to be quite unnecessary, but for some reason, I still left other vital parts of me much unattended. That is an area I am fully invested in correcting. One part of me does not need to grow at the expense of other parts.
Making incredible strides for me this new year is not a matter of “if”. It is non-negotiable. I will be sure and excited to keep y’all posted with shareable events in my life as they unfold.
Meanwhile, keep being real. Keep grinding. I love you.
Cheers to all things good, and all things worthy, and all things of good report.